This isn’t a pity post.

I met up with a friend last Saturday for this musical venue in Calgary.

We’ve been texting back and forth for about two weeks.

As a neurotic gay guy, receiving a text from a guy you like automatically means they like you to in that way.

But like my relationship with my dad, it was non-existent.

After the show, we went out and got some Thai Thai subs.

We were talking and making jokes, but somewhere in the middle of “slut-phase” and “I want to set you up with a friend”, I had

a inkilng he was going to say no.

When we’re finally about to part ways, I asked him out. Using my shrink as an excuse to ask me out.

He said no and it didn’t kill me. The anxiety of not knowing was way worst than the rejection. Don’t get me wrong

it sucks that he said no, but it’s a lot less worse than I thought.

Today I told myself I’d be productive and to some extent I was.

1. I finished my video project for school.

2. Learned a bunch of different things about wide angle lens and final cut express.

2. I uploaded my first video online for my website.

Okay, so I wasn’t really that productive.

http://beingbent.com/

Thank you.

[one_third] Several years ago, a guy was labeled either straight or gay. There was nothing in between. Alfred Kinsey and his colleagues developed a scale, which people have come to known as the Kinsey scale, a heterosexual-homosexual rating system. The scale attempts to describe the sexual history and activity of an individual. There isn’t a test for the Kinsey scale; it’s basically a method of self-evaluation. The number that an individual chooses is basically the rating they gave themselves with regards to their sexual exploits with the same sex. [/one_third] [one_third] Their findings stated that men aren’t as exclusively heterosexual as they like to let on. When you ask a guy if he’s straight or gay, you will usually get a definitive answer —either “I’m straight” or “I’m gay.” Kinsey stated that sexuality is more fluid—dividing men’s sexuality into two groups (gay or straight) doesn’t leave much wiggle room for any other spectrum of sexuality. After I conducted a campus survey of 10 random male students, I discovered that men between the ages of 19to 20 are quite open to talking about their sexual exploits, even though none of them wanted their names published. [/one_third] [one_third_last] Using the visual illustration of the Kinsey scale, I asked them to select what number on the scale they fell under. The majority of respondents chose either one or two, leading me to conclude that the guy next to you occasionally does a reach-around with the guy next door. Sexual encounters between a straight man and a gay man or even two straight men happen because the encounter isn’t based on some ludicrous notion that they are in love. It’s based on their primal desire to relieve themselves with whomever as Sexuality is fluid, it is a constant change that no one has control over, at least that’s the way I see it.  [/one_third_last]

Online dating has turned into an inevitable scar on the pimple riddled face that is our society. Gay dating sites claim that they cater to the wide array of homosexual men, but really they only cater to three specific audiences of gay men, good looking men, slutty men, and good looking slutty men.

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It was my brother’s birthday when this balloon incident transpired. My brother placed a balloon in my bedroom, I hit it by accident and I got scared shitless (shitless is apparently not a proper word, silly English grammar) for a second.

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For the past four years I have not been in a relationship, I have not had sex, and I have not achieved  any substantial accreditation. Needless to say, I am exactly the type of person to tell you what happens to you when you find yourself in a not-situation.

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